You know when things feel good, they feel really good? And when it’s bad, it’s like the world is ending?
How can we get out of this cycle of too many ups and downs?
Even though I find that overall, I’ve been a lot more levelled out in life (in the past, things used to feel a lot more up and down) I still wonder if my current ups and downs are “normal” or just a part of the human experience. I wonder how others experiences emotions and their day-to-day life. I think about how someone else would have reacted or responded to the sh*t I’ve been through in the last few years.
It’s a weird thing, looking back at your experiences and wondering how the heck you put up with some things and how in the world you survived… but here we are. Living. Surviving. And on most days, thriving.
I have so many thoughts and ideas and emotions in my head at all times that it becomes hard to sort through them. What do you think about first? What do you tackle first? What do you prioritize? What can you ignore? What will bite you in the a*s if you ignore?
I have so many things that I want to accomplish but then it also feels like I never have enough time or energy for all of them. But then I get mad at myself for having that mindset, because I should have the mindset of “anything is possible.”
Oh, that ever-present “should”. When that word creeps up, I know that there’s something there that isn’t…good…healthy…if I feel like “should” be doing something then I know it’s not coming from a healthy or positive mindset.
I don’t know what I’m rambling on about. But this is what I do. This gives you a glimpse into my brain. The never-ending thoughts and emotions? Yeah. This is what it’s like to be Seppy.
Some days I don’t mind it. Some days it annoys the sh*t out of me and I wish I could get out of my head. But then they say you have to love every part and accept the parts of you that you’re ashamed of. I’m not ashamed of my overthinking. I just find it exhausting at times.
But other times I find it cool, because I have so many ideas and ambition. I just hope it leads to something one day. To what? I don’t quite know. Big things. Amazing things. Things that will help the world. I have an idea. But it’s still a bit fuzzy. I’m still trying to put the image into focus. But it’ll come. I’m trusting that “time will tell” and as long as I’m trying to focus on the image, it’ll come into focus on day.
What do you secretly dream of doing?
