“I guess I should write a journal entry” – my thoughts a few minutes ago.
I find that I have a limit of my output of energy. There’s a certain amount I can socialize every day. Or a certain number of decisions I can make in an easy. When my energy wanes…. so does my desire to do very much. Although I’ve always been a queen at pushing through, I’ve learned that it’s not healthy and I find that I’ve become more lenient with myself. Which isn’t a bad thing. It’s just different.
Although I didn’t really feel like writing a journal entry (sorry. It’s not you, it’s me) I didn’t want to break the streak that I have going. And even though this feel like a bit of an energy drain in some ways, it’s also energizing in other ways.
Weird how that works, huh? How some things can be enjoyable but draining at the same time?
I find that socializing feels that way for me. I’m a sociable person. I like interacting with people. I like connecting. I love having interesting conversations. I love asking questions and learning about others.
But then I also love being alone and not talking to anyone. I could go for days without seeing another person and being okay. Well… mostly okay. I do get a bit of cabin fever at times. Although I haven’t felt that way this winter, even though I’ve been spending a LOT more time inside the house than I usually do (I’m so grateful that the small gym in my building has a treadmill so I try to still get enough steps every day. I’m not always successful but whatever, it’s winter. Let me hibernate).
I always find it fascinating when there’s such a big dichotomy within each person. Being sociable and being able to easily connect with others, but preferring to be alone.
Anyway. Those are my thoughts for the day. It’s been a decent day. Productive. I worked. I did my pilates. I washed my dishes. I showered. I made my bed. I published a new YouTube video. I had dinner with my Mom. I laughed with my Dad.
Today has been a good day.
Let’s see what tomorrow brings.