There are some situations in life that are seemingly not a big deal...but actually end up bringing up a lit of sh*t and emotions that you didn't necessarily realize were right under the surface. Has it ever happened to you where you exploded or reacted a little bit *too* strongly to a situation that didn't warrant such an emotional reaction? Yup. That's what happened to me recently when I was replacing my couch and trying to finally finish decorating my home where I've been living for over ...
[ journal entry 5 | 2022.01.27 ]
I often wonder if I’m the only one that experiences so many ups and downs, whether it’s from one day to the next, or even moment by moment. I’ll be fine one minute and the next, I’ll be anxious and restless, and find myself pacing my condo. One day I’ll be full of energy, ready to tackle the world and do all the things. And the next day, I want to be in bed and watch Netflix and eat popcorn. Am I normal? But that begs the question : What *is* normal? Does that even exist? And even if ...
[ journal entry 4 | 2022.01.26 ]
I’m on a roll so I want to keep going. But I really don’t know what I’m going to write about today. Then again, I always end up finding something to write about. As a child, I used to talk a lot. Then again….I’m an adult, and I *still* talk a lot. Maybe that’s why I enjoy writing. Because I can keep “talking” and I don’t feel like I’m boring anyone, since you could stop reading whenever you get bored. But hopefully you’re not bored. Hopefully you’re curious about what random thoughts I ...
[ journal entry 3 | 2022.01.25 ]
Funny how things can be different from one day to the next. My energy was frantic/anxious today. And it wasn't great. I felt like I kept jumping from one things to the next, or doing more than one task at a time to try and get ahead of my to-do list. Granted, I was more tired today. My neighbour was making a lot of noise and it woke me up at midnight. I've become *that* neighbour that goes and knocks on the door to tell them to stfu. I don't understand how people are inconsiderate. He ...
[ journal entry 2 | 2022.01.24 ]
Today was a pretty good day, considering... For someone that has been diagnosed with severe anxiety, that's gone through 3 bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts in the past...a good day is always welcome. Because on the days you're not good, it feels extremely scary and the thoughts quickly spiral to a dark place, wondering if you're going to keep sliding down the path to doom. For those of you that have never felt depressed or anxiety, this might sound dramatic. And if you can ...
[ journal entry 1 | 2022.01.23 ]
This idea came to me yesterday. I'm not sure whether it will be interesting or whether I'm writing for nobody. But I have always found writing to be very therapeutic and thus why I have so many journals. I think I express myself the most easily in writing. I get lost in my thoughts when I speak and the words come out disorganized. When I write, I'm able to let my fingers glide along the keyboard and let the words come out. When I write in my journal, my pen is dancing across the lines as the ...