It's Valentine's Day. I just posted a funny Instagram Story, but then I started feeling sad for being alone tonight. Isn't it so ridiculous how things that seems so minute and irrelevant can upset us? They say that the "firsts" after a death is always the hardest. Yes, I'm still mourning the death of my marriage. The first Valentine, the first Christmas, the first birthdays, the first anniversary...those were the toughest. But they're still hard in other ways. Missing something you ...
[ journal entry 12 | 2022.02.13 ]
You know when things feel good, they feel really good? And when it's bad, it's like the world is ending? How can we get out of this cycle of too many ups and downs? Even though I find that overall, I've been a lot more levelled out in life (in the past, things used to feel a lot more up and down) I still wonder if my current ups and downs are "normal" or just a part of the human experience. I wonder how others experiences emotions and their day-to-day life. I think about how someone else ...
[ journal entry 11 | 2022.02.08 ]
The road to happiness is riddled with twists and turns. But what is true happiness? Is it a destination? Is it a moment? Is it a feeling? Is it a state of being? These are the questions that are constantly on my mind. The other day, I was doing my chores (if I’m honest, with a bit of a bad attitude) because I just didn’t feel like it. I worked close to 50 hours last week and the last thing I wanted to be doing on a Sunday after doing more overtime for my 9-5 job was to change my ...
How I Use my Journals and Planner to Achieve my Goals
A glimpse into how I use my (many) journals and planner to stay organized and achieve my goals this year. Being organized is only part of the secret to achieving your goals. If you want to create your dream life, you have to cultivate the right habits to support your goals. Here's a look into how I stay on top of my goals and my habits. I'm also curious to see what others write about in their journals, how they use their planners, and how they stay organized. It's no secret that I love my ...
[ journal entry 10 | 2022.02.06 ]
You know what's really annoying? Changing bedsheets. It always feels like such a huge chore. And I get a full on workout from it. Having to lift the mattress, pull down the corners to try and make it fit over the mattress. Then trying to pull more to make the crinkles go away. God. It's a pain in the a*s. I just felt like sharing that. Because I tore a little part of the corner of my bedsheets today. And I got frustrated at how hard it is. And it's a chore that I push back (longer ...
[ journal entry 9 | 2022.02.03 ]
I just spent the last (almost) 7 hours laying on the couch. The cramps, nausea, fatigue...ugh. Being a woman is fun sometimes. It's moments like this where being alone is harder. Where you have to peel yourself off the couch to prepare a meal for yourself. Or get up and fill up your water bottle. My period cramps used to be *so* intense that I would faint from the pain. It was a monthly occurrence and it was hell. So now, when I get my period, I still have that worry in the pit of my ...